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Again. Sorry for the wrong grammar. Lol. While i was typing the title of this blog i noticed that i shook my head. (Or is it was shaking my head) okay i already apologized for the grammatical errors of this post so please do continue and dont give a fuck. Lol. The reason i shook my head because this happened before. Many times. I couldn’t sleep because something’s bugging me. In my previous blogs i blamed it on caffeine. And yes, i had plenty of caffeine today. Lol. And i was supposed to edit my resume. I did edit my resume. I tried to put some art and then noticed the time 11:oo pm so i decided to sleep. Lol. Before that i had a battle. (Positivity versus negativity) in my mind. Lol. The funny thing is positivity won, so i didnt bother to edit my resume. (Tomorrow is a new day! Hurrah!) lol. But because i had caffeine overload i couldn’t sleep. If i had edited my resume it shouldve been ready for printing tomorrow. Lol. What a rubbish post. Hahahahahahaha! I dont know. If people like me. Will succeed. Hahahahaha. Crap! But if you will think about it, for example, you have a big exam on a certain subject, you didnt review because you didnt feel like doing it. And the next day your professor’s sick. So, no exam. Lol. I am not rationalizing my laziness. I think it’s just funny. Maybe ill get by with this attitude but no distinction in terms of success.  I am not against hard work. In fact i am surprised that i involuntarily worked hard in some phases of my life. (Whatever you call it! ) well i think this post is pointless for some. But meaningful for me. Meaningful because this is my outlet. After this post i will be fine and soon be in good working condition. I guess in life there’s plenty of stress. Stress that leads to overthinking then paranoia. If i were an HR i would never hire the author of this blog. Hahahahhahahaha! Because it seems that the writer is unfit for the job! How come there were employees that i know who passed the exam,etc but were unfit for the job? Dumb HR. I guess. Lol. Or palakasan. Oh dear. I think i shouldnt be too harsh on myself but sometimes i do this or a lot because i am fucking procrastinating all the time! Hahahahaha! I dont always work hard but when i do, i work til i lose my senses. Nice nice! Have you ever had enough time you had taken all the personality tests on google search’s pages 1-3 and still remember the questions? Yes! Lol. Name all the mbti/jung typology websites. Been taking them since i learned how to use the internet. Result? Intp. Always. They say that einstein’s an INTP. He’s my idol. And the only similarity that we have is we dont know/ want to drive. Lol. I havent tried it though. Anyways let me define my personal mbti result. Intp. Introspective Negative Thinking(over)Paranoid. Hahahahahahahahahahahaha! Perfect! Mind you, this is only an outlet. I call this therapy. Writing clears my mind. When the world has taken its toll on me(at least in my imagination) i write. At least i do not whine about love life! At this moment i remembered my crush. I call him mr sunshine! Because there are plenty of stars in the universe. Bigger, brighter, bolder, yet the sun is the only star that shines over the earth. Giving life! Wow! But he shouldnt be mr sunshine. Because the sun is in the perfect position. So it means he will never be mine lol. Or im not the earth. Im pluto. Hahahahahaha. I think im talking like crazy. I just remembered his face and i suddenly talked about the solar system. Well even i dont earn money from writing, i still consider myself as a writer. A writer is someone who creates something awful into something beautiful. Wait, isnt it called recycling? Lol. No thats garbage to something useful. But theyre kinda similar. And a writer exaggerates things. Like for example you read ” the sheets that hugged them produced heat… Sorry it sounds like sciencey. Lol. What i mean is authors can make sex like an art or something beautiful but the actual physical thing is it’s not. Its more of a funny and a little disgusting kind of thing. Hahahahaha! Well because writers focus on the beauty/ feeling rather than the bad things or unnecessary things. Okay enough of this shit. So it’s 1:20 am and how am i supposed to get up early and edit my resume? Lol. We’ll see! Hahahahaha

all’s swell that ends swell.

it’s been a while. i never thought that i’d be updating this blog since i was or should be busy. (excuse me for the wrong grammar.. thanks lol) while typing i can feel my right ring finger ache. well, in my last post i told you there’s an upcoming good news. it was the opposite. and i don’t want to tackle about my crush because i am paranoid that someone will find out who am i talking about. even my family doesn’t know about this blog. well no one knows that i have this blog. (hopefully). out of paranoia i removed the link of this blog from my old blog. lol. lololololol. and im not sure if writing here is a good thing. because i intended to review for my upcoming exam. hahahahahaha. maybe i have accepted the fact that i’m going to fail class. WHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i’ll just have to be prepared for the future. the irony of my blog title. this i-just-can’t-get-enough feeling of wanting to see myself fail again. i know what i want, yet i don’t push myself to the limits. because i don’t want to exhaust myself. i never changed. again, im still the person i knew ten years ago. i know people get tired of hearing me whine and complain—i am going to cut my reklamos muna. LOL. i got excited because Charlie Puth is coming to Manila! hahahahahaha! my mum is a big fan! okay enough of the drama. i live for the moment! and whatever we do in life…we shouldn’t blame it on others. so im going to update this blog soon. i will tell you how it feels to fail. and add another lapse to my ultimate dream. hahahahaha

Time management

time check: 11:21 pm.

• i have no time to whine
• hello html on the upper right hand corner of my monitor.
• Just had an epiphany after talking to a close friend.
• didn’t do any homeworks because of the statement above.
• yet i still gave time to write a blog post
• felt im on the right track
• i dont know why. Lol
• sometimes overconfidence pulls you down.
• I have prepared my excuse for that.
• I wonder if my crush knows this blog
• maybe not. Hahahahaha
• i wish he would find it.
• Maybe i’ll send it to him after i have verified that i will never see him again.
• He will not be interested.
• Im a sucker for the impossible.
• My grammar sucks
• i am still confused when it comes to annalyzing my feelings.
• Because feelings aren’t meant to be annalyzed.
• i take that back.
• Mental block.
• i am feeling hyper
• like something good is about to happen
• maybe it’s the opposite because i havent done my homework.
• i wwnna thank myself for the entertainment
• i have my motto: happiness is where i am
• so this post is happiness.
• im somewhat excited dor tomorrow.
• I will tell you about the updates.
• i am hungry.
• Writing in bullet form is fun
• true: when you really want something, you spend time to do something about it
• I hate school.
• I love blogging.
• find the wrong grammar.
• There’s a true in the sentence,
• what will happen to me tomorrow?
• ……….
• Good night!
• not bad. It’s just 11:38 :))