Ive been repeating adele’s all i ask. I never intended to write but i guess this is my only outlet to feel better. I have been busy since i started school. And just looking at my saved sites i feel more stressed. Gui, oop, lol. What urged me to write? Well. First of all, thank heavens no one knows this blog. As bad as it may sound, i have to cope with people i don’t like. Yep. No, they didn’t Harm me. Its just (no apostrophes because its late and im dead tired) i dont like them. I tried to appreciate their good side but the feeling is just awkward. I can’t pretend and mask my annoyance in front of the people i dont like. You know the juciest part of my story? Well, i sort of like someone desperately. Yes, i know when i write something i want to happen– it will never happen. I dont know. Well maybe because i already gave up. Okay. So i tried every possible way to be with that person, and i did without being too obvious. But his circle, well…. Theyre The people who annoy me. 😂😂😂. Very funny. Well i guess its better to forget all about it. Maybe the passion i felt for him wasnt enough so i decided to back out. Well honestly there are other options. But my pride said, why not focus on the things you like alone. You dont need to compete, nor pretend. Yet at the back of mind it sounds quite challenging. I already weighed the consequences though. I dont wanna be separated with my lovely friends. Spending time with him will lessen my good times with friends. It would also cost me money. Aaand time. I live far from their location. I feel strange because their concept- is what i have been daydreaming these past few weeks. So i guess ill just have to work alone. Focus on my stories. Play videogames. ALONE. Imagine the stress it caused me? Lots of caffeine and nicotine. So i just have to accept that this plan wouldnt work. And move on. I feel embarrassed. I think God just shook his head again and said, my dear daughter. Youre still inconsistent. Lol. So i guess i will leave it up to him. Anyways theres still one thing im consistent about. My projects. Lol. My videogame/ animation. I just have to be careful about the outside stimuli. I better check if theyre an inspiration or distraction. I feel like im just a high school student. Lol. Well lets see tomorrow. Im not sure if i would write an update. I just hope i dont act… Oops. Satan is waiting. Sorry satan. You wont win this time. Lol. Its now 12:03. Lol. If i didnt wake up early i wont go to school. Btw im not sure if id pass my subjects. Oh dear. Im still the person i knew ten years ago. Whahahahahahahahaahah.
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