travel.

again, excuse me for the wrong grammar. i have no editor and i don’t edit my blog posts. as if anyone reads this. LOL. In my 29 years of existence i have seen my friends and acquaintances’ lives thru facebook. I am not a fan of facebook. I want it to be taken down because– it annoys me. LOL. it annoys me to think that there’s a representative of myself in the cyberworld. anyways, most of my facebook friends ranging from ages25 to 34 are having the time of their lives: having a family of their own, traveling, etc. I have been to London but since i came back to the Philippines i have never traveled at all. why? because i’m broke. It’s not an excuse. Okay, here’s another excuse. I am very bad at directions. I’m not a good travel companion because he/she would feel like taking a kid with tantrums during travel. sounds exaggerated but that’s what i feel. And another excuse would be i would love to travel with the right people. Excuse me? that is a very rude answer especially when some of my friends who invited me to travel finds out. Or as my retard friend would say, you are not adventurous. you just love the indoors. maybe he’s right. I have no time to travel. I only love unlocking different worlds from plants versus zombies 2. i have gone through several worlds in it. LOL. and upgrading my elixir collectors and gold mines on clash of clans. what a nerd. I actually prefer playing games on my nintendo ds but i lost my charger. and i have finished mario although i haven’t unlocked the two secret worlds. sigh. i can’t believe that i am still living in the world of imagination. it’s a choice, i guess. i’m happier in this form of leisure.

I am an introvert. how come i have made lots of acquaintances and friends ? because of interests. but these people dont really know me . they just see the crust and the mantle but not the core. nevermind. they only approach me when they need to tell something significant in their lives, or need an advice. most advises i have given were about relationships. a single, emotionally unstable person giving love advice. lololololol. should i feel bad about this? yes i feel bad. but maybe it’s how they feel about me. i don’t know. it’s none of my business anyway.

i had this writing urge several times but i tried to ignore it because i’m lazy. whahahahaha. but this time i decided to write because i feel empty. I feel guilty as a Christian because if you have God in your life, you feel complete. i know. maybe i should contemplate more, and fight this mental battle by thinking positively. ignore that emptiness. you know if i have got all the money, i would get a regular brain scan to see if my brain’s changing every time i feel down. i want to see the physical aspect of my brain. lol. anyways, since i have a lot of my time i would just focus on writing on my stories. lol. i am thankful i have my stories because they make me feel good. alive and kicking. see you later.